Hi sorry I have been gone for a while, but I’ve been trying to work out all that life is doing these days and working on me. 

I want to be a better me in the years to come - one my children continue to be proud of. This is not so simple. I truly never thought I would get this old or be here to see my daughters get married. I wasn’t supposed to survive adolescence. But I am alive and this is a wonderful, amazing thing. It also means I never looked at life this way, so I have been blindsided a bit. Yet, I’m still standing here on this spectacular planet we are all blessed with. 

I am so happy, sad, and at times bewildered as to how I move forward into this next phase of myself and my life. I know it will be ok, but it still feels so new. 

We have all have seen this world change overnight and I know this part of it is a shared feeling of everyone globally. The ‘how do I move forward with what’s happening and happened’ but we will. We are humans and we will adapt to this new adventure in being alive. 

We have seen Zoom become a family word. Masks have become normal. There are children now a year old that have never known a different reality than this. They can walk and talk and have never seen a room full of smiling faces. 

This is a time of change for everyone. My Mom is a wonderful person who keeps us all together at times like this. She writes to myself and my sisters and daughters and her sister every morning with a text about her day. She has held us all close, even when this pandemic has tried to keep us apart, by helping us as a family never to stop talking. 

By including us in her day she’s a good example of how we can feel overwhelmed by all this, but still look for each other, to keep strong with-in close friendships and family ties. 

Things are growing in our yards again, the sun is up more and we are humbled by this past year. It’s good to be able to see the earth as one place we are all in. It can at times seem so broken apart, but now more than ever we have been given the chance to see this wonderful world as one place. 

This is only the start of all that has been going through my mind. I will share more in the future. 

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